Subtle Kaleidoscope

"Mental illness is like fighting a war where the enemy's strategy is to convince you that the war isn't actually happening." . . .  So I took the enneagram test few days back and I still can't get over the results. I m type "Two" personality; the helper/ the giver/ the sensitive. I looked up on the internet and found the song "Two" from "sleeping at last"  was for people with type Two personality like me.  And you know what ? tht song kills me and yet makes me feel understood. Those lyrics, I can relate to tht song not because I am the one saying them but I wish I was the one they were said to; those are the words that I say to fictional characters in my mind hoping they'll say tht back too. "Sweet heart, you look a little tired." This got me crying, the very first line. You get tht? How accurate this song is for people of type Two. The YouTube comments section was worth reading , more than the video itself. I wanna shar...

                     Anyways; What is depression actually? What is anxiety ? Or what's the difference between both of them?  Actually the mother of all these less cared for cliche diseases has been overthinking. And I happen to do it a lot; and I can perfectly tell you how it feels. There are hundred thoughts on my mind, tht I share only with my walls. And there is Just one thought tht actually makes it to my mouth ; only one thought tht I can say to one real person. Rest 99 thoughts stay up in my mind all day and all night. Someday I'll write about tht one thought but not today. So a boy committed suicide. He wasn't unhappy, he was doing good in studies and his game. He got a good job , was fulfilling his career goals but he still found a motivation to die ; which means you can never satisfy your need of a perfect Life even if it's perfect. Which means even the normal bright one wanted to die sometime. Which means depression/ ...