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effortlessly, my own



I think I like daisies, particularly the smaller ones, because they almost pass as weeds
unlike other flashy flowers.

. . .


Not a flat,

Not an apartment by road,

Not my father's house,

Not my man's

A house of my own.


With vases full of daisies,

my pillow and my porch.

Few books piled on the other

slippers by the bed; a coffee mug 

on the table made of white oak


With footprints of my wet feet ,

as I tiptoe from shower to my room

A room with canopy of cream linen.

And a garden of daisies I grew on my own


With post-it notes on refrigerator, inside jokes.

On the kitchen island:

Some electricity bills, few grocery lists

Loads of unfinished artsy canvas, and the many glasses I own

Daises in the cozy corner with chairs that fold;

Living room dancing on the rug, not too old


A place I can rest, light as snow

No one to guide,

No one to scold

No one to know, no one too cold


Filled with daisies and Love

A place, 

effortlessly, my own.







Comments

  1. Ahhh! The feeling of serendipity in having this neverland.

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  2. "No one to scold"
    Ughh the amount of relief it would bring my inner child !

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    1. I wrote "no one to guide" to show that it is difficult for me to be on my own or trust my thoughts , so it is terrifying for me to be alone with not one to guide, but then again "No one to scold" calms that down a bit :)

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