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Lacuna

Lacuna
noun
a gap or missing part, especially in a book or any other piece of writing

Broken glass body,

Of pens that once wrote the melancholies and melody

Tattered, shattered clothes across my lobby

Which once timidly sat behind my closet

Like a stupid prodigy.

From twisted figures,

Came those sharpest weapons

From torn and shattered papers,

Came a wrinkle, what happens

If you saw the scars in my memory lane

If you heard the reckless tides, I gained

If you felt my freezing chill on a summer day

If you tasted the red blood out of pouring grey rains

What happens,

If you could smell my burning pain?

 

Scratches on my body,

Of anger that found its way back on my skin.

Circles of darkness round my eyes,

You don’t know what secrets they hide,

because you love the way they blink.

From broken promises,

Came my strongest trust issues.

From black roses and red blemishes,

Came those wet tissues.

And a bruise, what happens

If you saw the truth, I never told you

If you heard the rumors that were never true

If you felt this strange affection with the word blue.

If you tasted the fountain of youth in the time of doom.

What happens,

If you could smell my burning life?

 

Will you even accept the bad

In me when you say

“You are something close to perfection.”

Will you still let the sad

Mirage, burn your coldest May

Even when you’re stuck in my desert of regressions.

What happens if your five senses tell you to let it go away?

Or what if they tell you to stay?

Because the mirage, desert and May will again

Occur, like an endless train of grey.

 

 

 

Annexure

 

 

1.       Lacuna – a blank space

2.       Broken glass body- the pens that could not write the words i wanted 

3.       a stupid prodigy - A stupid delusion that one is able to understand emotions like a pro

4.       From twisted figures\Came those sharpest weapons -The angst that I could not relieve even after disfiguring objects around me took shape of the meanest words that I have said.

5.       torn and shattered papers - Too afraid to write what I feel in simple language; metaphors are a beautiful hiding place for me and a code that only some understand

6.       a wrinkle- wrinkle that you get when you think of some unrealistic possibility

7.       scars in my memory lane- scars that I still possess physically from an unpleasant incident or the scars that incident left on my mind

8.       the reckless tides, I gained – the waves which returned home from an island

9.       freezing chill on a summer day- unusual? Like me being happy when I should be sad or vice versa

10.   red blood out of pouring grey rains- when my pain can bring out your pain

11.   burning pain- one gets enormous pain that hurts and now it has started burning; do you know what is it? Nopes.

12.   found its way back on my skin- when the only way to lessen this pain and hurt is to hurt yourself more

13.   because you love the way they blink- when one chose to neglect my flaws and look at the bigger picture

14.   black roses-when what is expected turns out to be completely opposite of what it is

15.   red blemishes- when the tears burn your cheeks

16.   those wet tissues- hope that tissues will wipe out my flaws

17.   strange affection with the word blue- when you can connect to my elegies and see the color blue as golden

18.   you tasted the fountain of youth in the time of doom- when everyone leaves you and you realize their value/ the hope comes when you don’t need it at all

19.   You are something close to perfection. - nobody’s perfect!

20.   Sad Mirage-mirages make you happy for a while giving you hope there’s something that you want but in my case even mirages get sad

21.   coldest May- when you can feel the chills of losing someone even in the hottest month/when a cold hearted person is born in May

22.   desert of regressions- when a hopeless reminder is given to you timely that who has hurt me/ when you become part of that hopelessness

23.   your five senses- Five senses:  

·           you saw my scars

·         you heard my tides

·         you felt my chill

·         you tasted the blood

·         you could smell my burnt life

                                                    they always tell you to stay if you really want to.

    ∞. an endless train of grey- because I am the way I am; with 10 shades of love,15 of happiness, 5 of faith and 100 of unpredictable shit.

 


 





 

 

 

 

 

 

              

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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